happy swine flu

因为猪流感的原因，我爸告诉我先不要订去新加坡的机票。而据在新加坡的同学说目前新加坡还没有确诊病例。though i said "ok" on the phone,i actually oredy booked hotels in s'pore.ie.i will go.

相反，北京看上却是将要猪流感肆虐，因为有一名四川的美国留学生被确诊，而他乘坐飞机的过程中与162名在北京的人有过接触，目前只找到84人，也就是说仍有接近80个与患者近距离接触过的人正在北京撒播这些happy swine flu的病毒。主要集中于海淀区和朝阳区。而我每周由于新闻中心工作的原因，每周都要经过人口密集的中关村和五道口。
这样看来，是不是新加坡反而比北京要安全的多？即使在北京有确诊病例之前，就比新加坡要安全吗？未必。

现在这个星球真是变得越来越荒唐。我越来越想，我们还要在多少次对生命威胁的恐慌中度过余生？这并没有令我苦恼，我要在前进的同时多多享乐，善待自己，有些事情，既然想做，那就去做吧，没什么大不了的，不就能活这么一段时间吗，不做白不做。

看他有多红

I found this interesting part in a blog of a mraketing student:

As I have Tweeted yesterday, I am adding another segment to my blog posts
with the help of Google. In my every post, I will update you with the Top 3
Most Searched Key Words on Google. I'll give you facts about that particular
topic and give my opinion on why people are searching for that. That is if I
can think of any reasons.


So let's start with No 3 on the Charts.


Nadim Van Der Ros.


Ummm.. I totally have no idea who this person is. So who ever you are, I
want to tell you that around 43% of Singaporeans are looking for you in Google.

around 43% ah?是谁告诉我新加坡人都不八卦的？是谁告诉我celeb的私生活对新加坡人完全没有吸引力。
NO.3 much much muchsss more popular than his girlfriend huh? cool ==|||

The Life of A Sunflower

昨天在教学楼二楼大厅给妈妈打电话，抬头猛然注意到这幅凋萎的向日葵。有那么几秒钟，我竟然没有反应过来这这幅画原来是我画的，它挂在大厅的墙上半年时间，我却从未发现过。
这是我去年刚来到这所大学的时候，一个活动要求每个系要交一副作品。我很少参加什么绘画比赛，因为我不是艺术专业，从上初中就没有再学过画画；而且我也不喜欢在这方面竞争，每幅画诞生的意义都源于我自己本身，不管他在别人看来如何，不管是为了娱乐消遣，无聊的调侃，还是有什么更深层的意义。但是刚加入这个集体，这些事情总是不好推托，当时团支书告诉我这件事的时候已经到了deadline的时候，我只有半小时的时间，就画了这幅简简单单的素描。
我越看这幅画越觉得喜欢，虽然当时并不是真心想画，于是今天拿相机去把它拍了下来。有时候我很喜欢这种陈旧的感觉，那种沉寂，灿烂之后的凋零，它们是向日葵，年轻时是如何有着那种激情，每日追寻太阳的轨迹。我想我老的时候，也会安静下来，没有力气去追逐日光，那时候我要靠什么来过活。这些向日葵没有很忧伤，因为他们年轻时每日都在追逐日光，以致年迈时每一缕日光的轨迹仍然在它们的脑海中富有光泽。






















一个月前我在中关村买了《牧羊少年奇幻之旅》，事实上书名应该是《炼金术士》(The Alchemist).我在高一时读过英文的版本,但是因为英文水平有限，似懂非懂，但影响却一直延续到我再次在书店看到这本书的中文版本。我再次拜读。
半个月之后，我在同一家书店买下了我生命中第一本Lonely Planet。当你读了《炼金术士》就会了解这两本书之间的关系。
The morning after I order the S’pore concert ticket for my fri who study in sg,I made the decision almost as soon as I opened my eyes.it’s crazy but determined.Then I thought abt it for a whole day,no reason to decline it.it’s not only abt the concert,it’s abt me, it’s abt my answers,abt testing the power of my dream,abt the future life,abt the coca trees in my dream,abt my flounder in the past 3 years.abt the prelude of Florence…I decided to begine my Singa-Malay journey from The Anwser Is… concert.i saw the omens.
In the same week,I bought my first Lonely Planet,I applied my first passport,I began my project to make money for the journey.



















有的朋友可能看到我在赚钱，而感到疑惑，我不认为赚钱是可耻的，你付出，你收获。梦想的实现不应该是等在那里，或是从父母那里索取过多。这次新马The Anwser Is…的旅行我不想向我父母要钱，就这么简单。

the new legend of white snake 新白娘子传奇

千年等一回 等你回来
千年等一回 我无悔
是 谁 在 耳 边
说 爱 我 永 不 变
只 为 这 一 句
断 肠 也 无 怨

雨 心 碎 风 流 泪 噫……
梦 缠 绵 情 悠 远 噫……

西 湖 的 水 我 的 泪
我 情 愿 和 你 化 作 一 团 火 焰。。。

the theme song of the drama The New Legand of White Snake


i always think taiwan shows suck.then today i happened to watch the old drama 新白娘子传奇 The New Legand of White Snake which produced in 1992.i saw it for the first time at the age of 4 or 5...i wander if i could understand the drama ,but i still watched it time and again.it didn make sense but it did attracted me at that time.

and i just knew that it was a taiwan drama!!however the three main actresses r all hongkongness.ah...it's a taiwan drama,a drama which i think is the most classic one for me.i guess taiwan can nvr hav any classic drama like this liao.
i don't watch tv shows actually,for they r too long and usually boring nowadays(esp those taiwan and mainland ones)but when i re-watched this drama,i can't stop to think abt it,it moved me,so deeply,from the memories,from the present.and i decided to watch it again,it's 50 ep!!!!wahh..gonna spend so much time,but it worth that,so many old shows which i watched thousands of times in my childhood r replayed today,but i don wanna rewatch them,only this one made me want to rewatch,it's a very sudden n strong feeling...the white snake is the most beautiful figure i've ever seen,and the green snake is sooo cute.....for those chinese who hav watched this,must watch.(ok,ok...diff ppl from diff background may hav diff feeling,but it's really classic)

西游记 红楼梦 我儿时看过不知多少遍 然而现在大部分情节还是被淡忘了 再看到重播也没兴致再看一遍。然而，我今天偶然看见了久违的《新白娘子传奇》却不知道为什么，突然产生一种强烈的感觉让我一直看，即使当天的ep结束 满脑子还是回荡着那些在剧集中重复了多少遍的歌曲。我从未有过这样被感动的剧集，我都很少看剧集，荡费时间又多半情节啰嗦牵强。。。为什么会是她，让我有这样的感动，从内心，从记忆中，从现在。我不想说多，感觉的事情，我还没有那么好的表达能力去说清楚。。我也不想在评价什么。只是说我现在意识到《新百》一直在我心底深处未曾褪色，尽管《西游记》等也是经典，但感觉真的是说不清的。

演员的选择也是堪称经典啊，白素贞赵雅芝真是我觉得最漂亮的人，孙燕姿是百看不厌，而赵雅芝则是真真正正的大美女！！！（ok ok,没有可比性，我就是喜欢扯上燕姿，怎么着）把白素贞这个形象塑造成了经典，不可能有人超越了。叶童也把许仙的书生气，老实演绎的惟妙惟肖，扮相也十分俊朗清秀。小时候我一直以为许仙是男人演的，不过现在想想要真是个男人也演不成这样。而且让芝姨天天对着一个男人这样戏剧化的眉来眼去也就太为难了吧。只是我现在看到叶童女人的扮像就很无语。青儿，是我小时侯最喜欢的角色，古灵精怪。

《新百》居然是一部台湾剧集，我刚刚才知道。因为三位主角都是香港人，我一直以为是一部港剧。如今的台湾剧简直是无聊矫情，怎么会这样啊。内地的剧集也没法看，尤其是古装戏和东北人的喜剧。我不是一个怀旧的人，只是差距也太大了。

busy and lazy + frozen fingers

Too busy to update my blog recently,you know,it's the end of the term,i must prepare for the final exam,and I still have some activities to parc...ok ok,it's mainly because I'm too lazy to update.I don't want to think,I don't want to write,and actually I don't really feel like to share my life.my fri told me I seldom talk abt my life on my blog,that's right,I simply don't want to,maybe that's why I almost lost connection with my high sch fri.for they don't get any info from the existing Wang Zhe,but only a ppl called Stelart talking abt irrelative things,and I dont call anybody,I do have QQ(the most popular IM in China),but I nvr use it.

what's more ,winter makes my fingers frozen. I'm actually complaining of the heater.sucks.

A nice way to put men's bellys into something useful! lol,how true!!
must try on those communistic politicians' bellys

Status Transfered

I thought i was in my dormitory when i woke up yesterday morning.

It's bizarre.My own room,a space which i built piece by piece,a small world where i pured all my tears and laughter,all my fears and hopes,a place where I store all my treasures,now turns out to be a unexpected scene after three weeks university life.

When I went through my room,there's an unexpected fresh and obsolete smell which i suddenly felt,I can't figure out if it's sorrow,fear,hope or happiness .I felt the antipathy of my high school life.I felt the dismay of my dream of being a designer.I felt the upset of can't making myself study in the last month before final exam.I also felt my struggling for NTU and a fictitious paradized Singapore life,felt my satisfaction of painting and creating.And CD covers emerged form the open drawers,posters blured the outline of the walls,Stefanie Sun's charming and powerful voice mixed with the smell of my room,and also my past 5 yrs journey.The 5 yrs of dreaming,the 5 yrs of antipathy,pain and dismay,once so near then suddenly thousands of km away.All I smelt in my room,the smell of memories.

How long the process was and how quick the result died away.I wonder how all those passed so fast,and how quick i was changed.

However,regardless of all my random thoughts,I'm not a person who clings to the past.After the death of the remembered future,I can still find my dream my motivation,though I haven't.Anyway,I seems transfered my status successfully.The road ahead might be long and winding, but it surely will take us to another plane, another world, another moment to cherish.

Get out of this house

You act like a baby, you talk like a fool
Get out of this house

Go
back to your mama, go back to high school
Get out of this house

Go
jump in the lake, go jump out the door
Get out of this house
I've had
all I can stand and, I can't stand no more
Get out of this house
Get out
of this house

this piece is from Shawn Colvin-A Few Small Repair-Get out of this house

I found it useful.Just imagine,when u quarrel badly with someone u don really care,u both don wanna speak with each other when u two happen to be left in the same room.You definitly wanna him/her to leave,u may sing this piece of the song which can be a clear indication.Is it very rude?But u were just singing a song.

Boring n stupid? well,I was just practised the piece this morning,but i wander if she can understand what i sang in english.

She's not a ppl which i don care,but her brainless behaviors dose really annoy me sometimes.It's always like that,u badly quarreled with someone who live under the same roof with you.Few min later, u two can just be as usual.

Lasting Heritage of High School

English Version: coming soon...LeeAnn don waste ur time to read chinese version,ur study must be busy.
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做梦往往通往我们的潜意识，我们没有办法去有意识的控制我们的潜意识。某种程度上，也不能控制我们的梦境，这有时候是我们的梦境成为一种有趣的经历。但也有的时候，我实在不能说是enjoyable的，就比如昨天晚上的梦境。

该死。。。我梦见我被中央财经大学录取只是高二一次模拟的预期结果，而接下来要继续进入高三学习，而不是中财！！！然后我又看到个子不高又古灵精怪的数学老师。。。奇怪，为什么我只看到数学老师，大概是因为当时数学总是有最多的做不完的作业。。。然后我便固执的拒绝上课，一种相当崩溃，无奈，盲目，极端又自暴自弃的状态，就像我高中提前回家的那段日子。

要知道，明天我就要去大学开始我的新生活了。梦里得到又失去的感觉真是糟糕，比失去更糟糕的是要继续上高中。很多长辈都说过，即便高考过去几十年，他们都仍然会偶尔做到关于考试的备受煎熬的梦。这是中国高中教育给人们留下根深蒂固而持久的遗产。而我想我不会这样严重，忘记那段时光好了，well，高中里我的并没有很努力，也没有很累到，但是那种一天24小时被固定安排以及完全被忽视的作为人的特权令我感到窒息。

无论如何，事实是我要开始大学的征程，而且会一直往前，往前，直到 find my destiny.

Lost Friends

PS.LeeAnn i write in eng also,so u just need to read the eng part

我刚刚在想 保持一段关系不是一件容易的事 需要的是持续的投入
当然有的阶段我们并不能意识到自己是在投入 这样比较好 但是事实是 年龄成长 生活结构改变 没意识的是少数
它们很脆弱 距离 时间 从来都没有不成问题

几经周折 我终于弄到了他的联系方式
我问了潍坊的很多人 都已经没有他的联系方式了
都是高中三年没有联系过 我也一样
我们是初中同学 初二那年他跟随父母搬去了北京
我清楚记得 他走后 我把他的照片摆在书桌前 难过的心情持续了很久
现在说这些有些丢人 但都已是往事
那真是个单纯真情的年龄 我想 现在和以后 不会再有朋友的离别会给我带来持续长时间的难过

我们初中一帮人的事我就不在这里说了 那是我记忆力最理想化的友谊 不过是前半部分
我想说的是朋友 You can never have too many friends...很少就够了
但是即使很少 也是上天的gift 好难 真的
而且真正的友谊并不一定代表坚固的友谊 我不相信relationship是坚不可摧的
distance physically 有时就等于distance emotionally
Melody我和你一起的日子真的觉得很快乐 很有true fri的感觉 但是我恐怕这又是一个distant relationship...

再说 a lost friend...重新联系需要勇气 因为现代通讯的那头 是未知和不确定性
3年 改变太多 而且三年前就somehow改变了 去了同一个城市 你们还有没有机会再认识？

To the lucky guys who hav true fri,do appreciate it,enjoy it,and protect it
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I was just thinking,relationship is nvr easy,we hav to invest our emotions n feelings n time into someone,though we sometimes don realize that.
I always believe relationships r fragile.

I finally got the lost fri's cellphone no.
my fri in Shandong all lost connection with him n we havn connect woth him for more than 3 yrs
we r good fri in sec sch,actually we r best fri,but he moved to beijing 5 yrs ago
I can still remember clearly how i put his pic on my table,how my tears fell off,got my face n hair wet
it's sheepish to write such things,but it's all past,i was only a little girl who was easily show true emotions.and we were all children who were easily build true relationship with

well,no more for the past...what i want to say is,u r must a super lucky guy if u get a true close fri
You can never have too many friends...and a few is enough...but even one it seems not to be easy
and when i thought i found a promising one...then it turns to be another distant relationship.we'll surely stay in the diff city...or maybe u can come to bj often after u come back u prc?
In my opinion distance physically is somehow equal to distance emotionally.

What's more...a lost fri...is it proper for u to reconnect him?It needs brave
There r too many uncertainties on the other terminal of our mordern communication tech.

anyway
To the lucky guys who hav true fri,do appreciate it,enjoy it,and protect it

Season

今天晚餐时间，走出教室，阳光从楼梯拐角处的窗户射进来，一片金黄的模糊，让我脑中出现傍晚金色麦浪的场景，然而这仍然是不能让心情有片刻逃脱的教学楼和拥挤的人群。有些怅然的说。

离开教学楼的那一瞬间，外界空气触摸到我的皮肤，立刻拨动了我敏感的心弦。是退去了盛夏气息的一种凉爽，这里是已经到秋天了吗？
每次季节的更替带来的变化似乎会勾起某种回忆，，却没有情节或画面，只是一种感觉，让人觉得很美（字不醉人人自醉，因为回忆总是美），又有点淡淡的忧伤混沌。

我享受变化，需要生活中充满新鲜感，也不太在意变化带来的得失。但每每总是这种季节的变化是我的心中有点酸酸的。之前我又意识到，或许这是因为季节变化让我在潜意识里体会到生命从看不见的地方流逝着，但并没有很明确的概念。

我很清楚地记得小时候时间过得那么慢，其实是没有概念啦，只是总想快快长大，又似乎都不会长大的样子，所以记忆中都那么慢。从某一刻开始，就15，16，17的全都走过来了，都说希望不要成长得太快，因为感觉时间一年一年步伐好快，还没来及感受17岁是什么样子，就要进入18了。
喔，貌似是大约认识ahzi之后，开始思考之后，便这么快了。记得the moment那一刻，刚认识你不久的我（见笑）看你离开，有点矛盾，你当然有所顾虑，但仍然很自信的说:”等我一年，回来之后会更好”,这一刻，才发现原来你已经回来了，我没有忘记你，一年太短了，还来不及忘记。之后一年又一年，现在已经是2007了

我从对世界一无所知的自己变成现在梦想生活，却再search的途中暂时止步不前的龌龊的高中生（人间炼狱中的高中生，我有夸张吗？这不是我自己说的，是有人去看我们的生活说的）或许山东的学生在一夜之生活的意义和方式都会有一个如此大的落差，那天之后我又会变成什么，can't be any worse

我有时候会想，时间的流逝带给我们的除了几十年之后的那一次永别，身体机能的衰退，还有什么。那个曾经只是喜欢唱歌的女生，那四个怀抱梦想的年轻人，那些日子我还没有经历就已经逝去，而这一刻我还不知道有没有认识自己，就看到另一张脸，来到另一个世界。

NDP07 is coming

because of the two NDP theme songs sang by ahzi,I began to be interested in NDP of sg.
I found it's a very festival,creative,interesting and touching event
and this time,the website,I think,is super nice

daytime view

night view
I seemed quite interested in this event,I watched the videos and even designed a logo for NDP04 when I was in secondary sch,quite funny

this event give me the impression that S'pore is an active country full of vigor,and I do really admire their gov.
Anyway,happy 42th birthday,dear Singapore

trevaler Da Long

我昨天看了大龙的blog(trevals4ever.blogspot.com Chian link:www.pkblogs.com/trevals4ever ),太赞了！！！！！
其中有一段话很真理的说

世界真大，200多个国家和地区，如果一年去两个，得100年，一年4个也得50年，70岁还能走得动吗？要加紧了。

看后觉得像leave comments,结果不知道什么原因没有办法comment,太郁闷了
都是China govn 可恶，可恶，可恶！搞得我好多功能都没办法用，但又不想move
因为用来用去还是觉得blogger的blog最好用

我很喜欢大龙的trevaller精神，有时候看了他的游记就会计划自己高中毕业后要去哪里哪里，到时候会把treval当作一个生活的重点来看待巴，已经等不及要高中毕业了。本来这次暑假计划自己去大连，都偷偷攒了一个学期的伙食费，省吃俭用，结果妈说必须要找个一起的，又是这样！烦死了，带上别人不又要像上次青岛那样变成累赘。后来问了一圈，都没有想去的，无非是因为没兴趣，会很累，没自己出过门。真是讨厌。只能等高中毕业了，反正还是自己treval比较有趣得说，可以完全按自己的意愿行事，也可以认识很多陌生人。I wanna be a backpacker!!!

Peninsular Malaysia Trip


hong kong trip

大龙的blog: http://trevals4ever.blogspot.com
China link: http://www.pkblogs.com/trevals4ever
大龙的Gallery: http://picasaweb.google.com/wangch079

另外，我也很喜欢大龙的新发型,我画过很多charactors都是用这种发型呢，wahahaha
就是短短的，感觉很好，之前看过很多电影里的法国男生留这种发型，十分喜欢，
但是同学就说像痞子，真是又gap呀，同一个generation,怎么有那么多gap.

blogs r blocked in China :< angry

不知怎么搞得，上次放大周回家就上不去我的BLOG了
过了好久还是不ok
后来再blogger.com的论坛上求助，才知道blog被中国的gov给block了
搞不懂他们怎么想的
后来才知道只有India, Pakistan, Iran and China的blogspot被block了
China难道是跟India, Pakistan, Iran一类的呀，huh?
还天天被骗说XX很发达，很先进，很开明了呢

Let's"Join the fight for free speech"

The Taste of Summer

前几天看到下面这段

Yesterday we had dried walnuts too. Have you ever tried dried walnuts? You kind of have to crack it open with a nutcracker. It is fragrant and taste of summer. They probably go very well with beer or wine, but I'm not a liquor fan. And when you are done the whole table will be filled with walnut shells and the brown dried membranes. IT is a wonderful mess. But one of my walls had red wine splattered on it. They said my dad did it...... I WONDER HOW. He said the bloody cork was to dry to be removed, of course he didn't say 'bloody'.... I don't know, I'm not a liquor fan.

而在看这篇留言的时候，我正在和我同桌吃walnut呢，haha
然后我们就仔细品味但终究没有感受到the taste of summer
而且我们也没有beer和cracker,我们是用剪子锹开
同桌说吃核桃居然会写得好象多么高雅的事，
hahah,不是很有趣ma?
而我们为什么要对生活习以为常呢？
当我吃核桃是能联想到the taste of summer时，那么吃核桃也就可以变成美好有幸福的事了

Discovery

Everything will be rediscovered,just as myself,can be reintroduced and rediscovered as well.somehow confusing,strange and exciting.

我现在都会怀疑，我究竟能不能安心，或是会所圆满地完成高中学业。我的常识告诉我，我必须要搞定它，这将会是有利的。而我内心又会说，离开高中吧，这些东西对你有什么意义呢，离开这里，做你自己的事情吧，你会很出色和与众不同，你天生就是一个不安定，放荡，不要约束的人。maybe I should leave behind all the material affairs and fame?go and find my real life?
Gain the part that is really belong to me?I'm confused.有时候我都不知道究竟是直觉和自己对自己的了解正确，还是常识经验正确。
ok,ok，I konw I should finish it,否则我会自毁前程？Will it be a disaster？
在高中这两年里，我惊奇的rediscovered,re-explored我自己，有些思想上的变化，性情上的变化，方向上的变化，爱好上的变化，或者更恰当的说发现，反现太多关于我自己的以前从未初级和了解的东西。她没让我惊喜，同时不知所措。
我发现我并不适合做题，我发现我对于art有这么浓厚的兴趣，对他的关注和思考开始渗入我生活的每一个缝隙，我发现我是如此痛恨一些东西，我发现我可以取得某种机会，我发现我都根本没办法强迫自己，我发现我有时太不care该care的事，我发现我有一点(maybe too personal,I just deleted such a lone sentence.)……好多好多，我都感觉自己是不是认识了另一个人。未来会怎样发展呢？


第2部分，我在班里越爷的桌洞里无意发现了Hustler(美国的色情杂志，不知道的可以google一下），原来这就是coco说的她之前邮购的原版图书。我很惊讶，就问王铭彦这些事情，他告诉我这对越爷很正常，他看的A片多到可以在好多部中找到相同的主角。也还有其他的男生也有这样的爱好。这以前还真的不了解，而那本杂志我没有办法让自己再翻第三页。人都会有互相无法理解的部分吧。