I thought i was in my dormitory when i woke up yesterday morning.
It's bizarre.My own room,a space which i built piece by piece,a small world where i pured all my tears and laughter,all my fears and hopes,a place where I store all my treasures,now turns out to be a unexpected scene after three weeks university life.
When I went through my room,there's an unexpected fresh and obsolete smell which i suddenly felt,I can't figure out if it's sorrow,fear,hope or happiness .I felt the antipathy of my high school life.I felt the dismay of my dream of being a designer.I felt the upset of can't making myself study in the last month before final exam.I also felt my struggling for NTU and a fictitious paradized Singapore life,felt my satisfaction of painting and creating.And CD covers emerged form the open drawers,posters blured the outline of the walls,Stefanie Sun's charming and powerful voice mixed with the smell of my room,and also my past 5 yrs journey.The 5 yrs of dreaming,the 5 yrs of antipathy,pain and dismay,once so near then suddenly thousands of km away.All I smelt in my room,the smell of memories.
How long the process was and how quick the result died away.I wonder how all those passed so fast,and how quick i was changed.
However,regardless of all my random thoughts,I'm not a person who clings to the past.After the death of the remembered future,I can still find my dream my motivation,though I haven't.Anyway,I seems transfered my status successfully.The road ahead might be long and winding, but it surely will take us to another plane, another world, another moment to cherish.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Status Transfered
Labels: Diary, Random thoughts
Monday, September 29, 2008
Links for some fab websites
Photoshop essentials
Fab tutorials on photoshop.
Well Wedicated
A design resource,very inspiring.
Color Lovers
color&design community
Labels: links
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Birthday Card

I designed this for my roommate yesterday.She want to make it into a birthday card for her boyfriend.
It's a sun,a rose,a universe of love
the pic was taken by my lousy digi camera,so the color is not very real
it's the first time i really give other ppl my design&painting.it's a hard time,u know?it's always hard for an artist to leave their satisfying works to others.But i've promised,so...
Labels: Art works
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Get out of this house
You act like a baby, you talk like a fool
Get out of this house
Go
back to your mama, go back to high school
Get out of this house
Go
jump in the lake, go jump out the door
Get out of this house
I've had
all I can stand and, I can't stand no more
Get out of this house
Get out
of this house
this piece is from Shawn Colvin-A Few Small Repair-Get out of this house
I found it useful.Just imagine,when u quarrel badly with someone u don really care,u both don wanna speak with each other when u two happen to be left in the same room.You definitly wanna him/her to leave,u may sing this piece of the song which can be a clear indication.Is it very rude?But u were just singing a song.
Boring n stupid? well,I was just practised the piece this morning,but i wander if she can understand what i sang in english.
She's not a ppl which i don care,but her brainless behaviors dose really annoy me sometimes.It's always like that,u badly quarreled with someone who live under the same roof with you.Few min later, u two can just be as usual.
Labels: Random thoughts
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Paralympic Games Spectator Mission
昨天我们学校组织去看残奥会,想去便可以去,没人还有10元的伙食补助,是让我们去冲人数的吧。反正这几天很清闲,当然义不容辞的去帮这个忙了;)
我们3:20pm坐校车出发,大约4:10pm到达奥运主题公园
然后一堆人过安检,大概有些人第一次过安检,带了好多乱七八糟的东西,不想被没收又跑回车里放。这样全部人都搞定又花了不少时间。每次参加活动等待都是不可缺少的一部分
因为奥运主题公园目前是不开放的,所以看到鸟巢大家都十分兴奋,纷纷拿出相机拍照。
和吴雨玲在鸟巢前合影,她是我同宿舍的新同学,来自四川绵阳中学,是一个可以把地震经历讲的很搞笑的人。比较经典的话就是:“大家好,我叫WU Yu Ning, Zhang Ai Ning(张爱玲)的Ning"。
大约4:45pm我们来到鸟巢脚下。白天里,鸟巢真的会比较好看,但是玲珑塔和水立方就不敢恭维了。
我很喜欢这些放在草坪上灯的造型。
入场前我又去水立方和玲珑塔那边逛了一下
鸟巢和水立方之间拥挤的广场
我6:10pm入场,当晚是田径比赛
颁奖后升国旗,中国共获得5金,也就意味着我唱了5遍国歌,貌似我高中三年一共都没唱这么多遍。
因为我刚好在颁奖台的正前方,所以拍到的大多是颁奖部分。我的疑问是,为什么大部分白人残疾选手都又帅又有型。
美丽的荷兰选手,其实我最喜欢的是他们队服手臂上那只郁金香。
英国选手很酷的hairstyle,那个摄影师要给他拍照,他起初以为是要拍奖牌,就摆了一个pose,结果摄影师告诉他转过身去,原来是要拍他的头,很好笑。
从我拍的照片可以看出我站的真的很近,其实基本上就在第一排。那群摄影师就在眼皮底下,还有一个中国的摄影师给我拍了一张特写,不知会不会上报,好像有点糗的感觉。
兴高采烈的李岩松和他的教练,他本来是跑第一的,后来不知什么原因成绩被取消了,白围着国旗跑了一圈。
再来几张体育馆里的照片
de dang!!刚出体育馆刚好碰到这位冠军,本来是没反应过来的。 就对着推着她的人竖了一下大拇指,他也笑着回了一个。后来才想到好像应该合影一下,就又跑上去。他们人都很好,说ok ok,one pic is ok.就帮我拍了一张。我刚拍完一会儿,他们走到一群学生周围,被认出,结果遭到围攻,还好有治安人员。
还碰到一群刚比完赛心情很high的运动员在边走边唱歌。虽然不知道具体是谁,但是被他们的心情感染自己也很happy和感动起来。就上去找那个戴帽子的合影,他很高兴答应还又拉了一个说:"This is my friend."我们就一起合影。结果就围上来很多人拍我们,郁闷 有什么好拍的,于是他们当时也不知道看那个相机了,总之没看我的。
9:30pm 我离开体育馆
之前有人告诉我,残奥会十分惨不忍睹,看了心里会很难受。可是我完全没有觉得,反而觉得男帅女靓,个个都很有型。他们的精神面貌和运动员气质让我完全意识不到他们是残疾人。
真正的残疾是精神的残疾。
Friday, September 05, 2008
Lasting Heritage of High School
English Version: coming soon...LeeAnn don waste ur time to read chinese version,ur study must be busy.
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做梦往往通往我们的潜意识,我们没有办法去有意识的控制我们的潜意识。某种程度上,也不能控制我们的梦境,这有时候是我们的梦境成为一种有趣的经历。但也有的时候,我实在不能说是enjoyable的,就比如昨天晚上的梦境。
该死。。。我梦见我被中央财经大学录取只是高二一次模拟的预期结果,而接下来要继续进入高三学习,而不是中财!!!然后我又看到个子不高又古灵精怪的数学老师。。。奇怪,为什么我只看到数学老师,大概是因为当时数学总是有最多的做不完的作业。。。然后我便固执的拒绝上课,一种相当崩溃,无奈,盲目,极端又自暴自弃的状态,就像我高中提前回家的那段日子。
要知道,明天我就要去大学开始我的新生活了。梦里得到又失去的感觉真是糟糕,比失去更糟糕的是要继续上高中。很多长辈都说过,即便高考过去几十年,他们都仍然会偶尔做到关于考试的备受煎熬的梦。这是中国高中教育给人们留下根深蒂固而持久的遗产。而我想我不会这样严重,忘记那段时光好了,well,高中里我的并没有很努力,也没有很累到,但是那种一天24小时被固定安排以及完全被忽视的作为人的特权令我感到窒息。
无论如何,事实是我要开始大学的征程,而且会一直往前,往前,直到 find my destiny.
Labels: Diary, Random thoughts
Saturday, August 30, 2008
我对Abel新留言“Rebelion"的翻译
This is my first attempt to translate Abel's msg into Chinese...hehe
Leoman didn do that on time,so I translated it for those guys on EMI forum.
"大家知道我最近自己剛創業 一直處於忙碌狀態 今天又剛好有很要緊的事急著要處理 燕姿在Blog上的新留言也才剛翻譯好 正要放上來時發現stelart已經翻譯好了 而且翻譯得很不錯 我想我就不需要放上我的版本囉 謝謝stelart
獅子座男子(Leo Man) "
and I found Leoman left the comment above on my thread on EMI forum.
Thank u for ur support,Liao Da Ge.
I unashamebly feel honoured.
TITLE: Rebelion
I just heard recently that a colleague of mine got beaten up about a year ago. Because he had many enemies, it was unclear who it might have been. I think my sympathy is however ambivalent. As much as I do not think he deserves to be physically hurt, I cannot but feel like he should have seen it coming someday.
我最近刚听说我的一个同事一年前被痛打了一顿。由于他有太多的敌人,所以也搞不清究竟是谁干的。然而是否给予他同情我感到十分矛盾。我认为他不应该在肉体上受到如此的伤害,我不应该但是(仍然)程度相同的觉得他之前应该早料到会有这么一天。
我最近剛聽說我的一個同事一年前被痛打了一頓。由于他有太多的敵人,所以也搞不清究竟是誰幹的。然而是否給予他同情我感到十分矛盾。我認爲他不應該在肉體上受到如此的傷害,我不應該但是(仍然)程度相同的覺得他之前應該早料到會有這麽一天。
I remember my days in school, there were these girls who were caught with cheap mall-bought drugs. They would unashamedly partake these diamond shaped 6 dollars tablets during school hours, getting themselves into a dizzying high before embarking on idiotic missions such as french kissing in the middle of a lesson. What were they thinking? I don't even know the options here, but my two cents is, they were thinking that their guts could have maybe brought them to a whole new platform. They were the epitome of the 'cool' and fearless. The girls who dared to do shit.
我记得我在学校的时候,有些女生因为身上携带市场买来的廉价的毒品而被抓住。她们会无耻的在上学时间分享这些6新元菱形的药片,在着手做一些愚蠢的任务(比如在上课时法式接吻)前使自己(因毒品而晕眩的)兴奋。她们到底在想什么?我甚至不知道这里有什么可能的答案。但是我认为,她们觉得自己的勇敢可以将自己带入新的平台,使她们变成cool和无所畏惧的典型代表。一群敢于乱搞的女生。
我記得我在學校的時候,有些女生因爲身上攜帶市場買來的廉價的毒品而被抓住。她們會無恥的在上學時間分享這些6新元菱形的药片,在著手做一些愚蠢的任務(比如在上課時法式接吻)前使自己(因毒品而暈眩的)興奮。她們到底在想什麽?我甚至不知道這裏有什麽可能的答案。但是我認爲,她們覺得自己的勇敢可以將自己帶入新的平台,使她們變成cool和無所畏懼的典型代表。一群敢于亂搞的女生。
I don't know why I linked the two stories together, I had my share of swaggering, bitch slapping and curse-filled afternoons in the common toilets. Those hot and humid, effusive days.
我不知道我怎么会把这两件事联系在一起。(大概因为)我曾有那些在公共厕所炫耀般大声发牢骚又诅咒的午后,那些炎热,潮湿又情感流露的日子。
我不知道我怎麽會把這兩件事聯系在一起。(大概因爲)我曾有那些在公共廁所炫耀般大聲發牢騷又詛咒的午後,那些炎熱,潮濕又情感流露的日子。
You know that feeling? Whereby you do something so incredibly rebellious that you felt that sweet yet metallic taste of fear and power?
你知道那种感觉吗?通过做一些不可思议的叛逆的事情,你会有一种甜蜜而又血腥味的恐惧与力量并存的感觉。
你知道那種感覺嗎?通過做一些不可思議的叛逆的事情,你會有一種甜蜜而又血腥味的恐懼與力量並存的感覺。
These days, I'm still trying to finish 1984. I know it is a literary prized piece of work. But I cannot appreciate it. This inescapable depressive oppression that builds around you envelopes you into a darker shade of grey. I'm still waiting for the proles to rebel. Hurry up.
这些天,我试图读完《1984》(著名的反乌托邦小说,有兴趣可以google一下)。我知道那被看作是一部非常有文学价值的著作。但是我真的不能欣赏它。这是一种围绕你建立的无处可逃抑郁的压迫,将你封如更加灰暗的阴影中。我仍然期待那些工人无产阶级赶紧造反。快些(造反吧!!!)。
這些天,我試圖讀完《1984》(著名的反烏托邦小說,有興趣可以google一下)。我知道那被看作是一部非常有文學價值的著作。但是我真的不能欣賞它。這是一種圍繞你建立的無處可逃抑郁的壓迫,將你封如更加灰暗的陰影中。我仍然期待那些工人無産階級趕緊造反。快些(造反吧!!!)。
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Twinkle Twinkle Thhinkpad
昨天刚去给我的Thinkpad加了1G的内存,现在用起来超爽(当然是建立在与之前的巨大反差之上)
这个本本我已经用4年了,是IBM PC下嫁联想之前的product.但看上去还是个handsome fella.
塑料外壳相当耐磨。记得我哥HP的laptop,用了一年就磨得不像样了,在火车上一挤还开裂。
没得说,IBM的东西就是办事
心爱的本本当然要用心呵护,我昨天一个一个把键盘都抠下来,彻底擦了一遍,这种键盘的设计真是相当贴心。
my attempt at art use keys.
It actually said "we luv STELART",lol...SICK --'
("we luv" is between L and A)
;)
My New Friend
我在Mikey 和Peanut 之间最终选择了Peanut.
I love the sleeping peanut,i love it's line-shaped eyes,i love the red color and i always think woodstock is gawkish...
Labels: Diary

